Well, today went cycling at ecp with a group of people and cycled at least 30 km or so. Currently muscle ache like omfg. :( But it was indeed an enjoyable day. As in I kinda managed to vent a bit of the frustrations out and feels a bit better. However was still disguising myself as usual. Sigh. I was trying so hard to a point that I don't know what am I doing. I guess maybe I had overdone it and irritated certain people. Hais. Stupid me. :( It is always hard to disguise in front of person who is able to penetrate through me. I tried so hard today, and kinda failed 2 times. :( After cycling and had Mac for dinner. Ordered double McSpicy which I don't even know why did I ordered that. Totally had no appetite to eat but well, for certain reasons, I still have to force myself to consume all those food. Sigh. :( So yeah, disguise as usual and this is how my yesterday went.
Currently bothered by some doubts. Sigh. I kinda feel that something happened without my knowledge recently. Is it that I am paranoid? I think so. Or is it that something really did happen and I am going to be forgotten or abandon again? I am not sure. I feel so insecure. But what's new? Damn. :(
Hopefully I will be back soon. I will try. Bye guys. Sleep tight. :)
The only reason I am hesitating to ruin my life or not.
