Hmm. So yeah. I am kinda reluctant to the new year. But I don't like 2011 either. So what? Basically I don't like every day. Lol. Living without a purpose seriously is a waste of my effort to me. But I can't end it. Sigh. I am still 16 only... Gosh. Don't know how many fucking years I have to endure before I die. Bleh. :( Well, 2011 is the worst year so far but I guess the future will definitely beat it. Sigh. Seriously, I am kinda afraid of what kind of things will happen. Especially that one thing that always makes me surrounded by insecurities. I don't know whether is it that I am paranoid or what, I feel that it will happen someday. Woah.. Nevermind. I guess I can get over it again barhs. This kind of thing isn't what I have yet met before. Happened so many times already. Sigh. I have to admit, 2011 seriously fucked my life upside down and so changes a lot a lot of stuffs in my life, including myself. I have lost so much. I have gained so much. Don't know whether to love or hate 2011. But well, it is just a day to 2012. And so 2011 will soon become a history. Should I be happy? Should I be sad? No idea.
My problem arh.. Hais. Forget it. Too much to say already. Seriously don't understand myself. Just those irritating voices within me. I just can't seems to find any ways to stop them. Why am I so insecure? :(
Alright. I guess it's all about that barhs. Trying my best not to make it too short already le uh. Sorry guys, for this emo blog, and also the more reserved me. A lot of stuffs inside of me. Hais. :(
"You are like the Sun. Everything becomes brighter when you're around."
Sometimes I wonder if you know that you have made a difference in me, in others, in the world, just because of your existence.
I just hope that you will never leave me behind.
